Perception about Life.
There are only a few things I cherish in my life, and my relationship was one of them, and sadly it came to an abrupt end I was not able to take it anymore.
Break up was tough for me, But I took a couple of days, and I realized that our break ups define who we are and how we are supposed to move further in life. Break ups can either blow your self-esteem and love spirit away or make you stronger so that you can take worse things in life. And the way my personal life is going- I think it is only going to make my perception about life beautiful.
I don’t think I will risk my feelings again and let one person define happiness in my life. It is sad how you dedicate yourself to something so beautiful for so long, and it backfires, but the great part about being young is that you can always start off again- when you are 21, relationships are not meant to be for long term.
I think when I will look back at it after a couple of months I will realize it was for the best and I could have done nothing to save it. Starving myself for days, over dosing on anti depressants, crying my ass off, calling him again and again and all was stupid and needy. Someone who loves you will never make you suffer like this- his behavior was vicious, nasty and downright harsh.
People who know my boyfriend knows he is a great guy, extremely hardworking, dedicated and amazing but when it comes to running his personal life- he loves blaming everything up on his partner and running away making them feel guilty, heartbroken and lost. I think age, caste, skin tone, space or salary for that matter is an excuse- when you are in love you can make everything work.
Now that I look back it was stupid of me to be so public about dating someone, making people so curious about something which was not even their business.
Back then when I did those things, I thought it was right- now that I look back it is embarrassing but not something I regret. Thank god I never gave my parents a subtle hint of something so temporary. I think soon I will be friends with him because we both are in the same city with mutual friends and we have to bump into each other.
Now that I’m opting for being mature and moving on I will set my priorities straight. I should live like a 21-year-old girl with a decent job- I should do what every 21 years old do- work for five days and stay sloshed for 2. I still will respect him, our relationship over 6 months and whatever we built over the time, and even though the castle crumbles, I will always cherish the waves.
I have been dating someone or the other from the age of 20; I’m glad I’m single now I will take my time before I fall for someone again.
